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Mesnil
Joseph drowses; Blaire yawns; Marthereau smokes, "eyes front." Lamuse
scratches himself like a gorilla, and Eudore like a marmoset. Volpatte
coughs, and says, "I'm kicking the bucket." Mesnil Andr6 has got
out his mirror and comb and is tending his fine chestnut beard as
though it were a rare plant. The monotonous calm is disturbed here
and there by the outbreaks of ferocious resentment provoked by the
presence of parasites-endemic, chronic, and contagious.
Barque, who is an observant man, sends an itinerant glance around,
takes his pipe from his mouth, spits, winks, and says
"I say, we don't resemble each other much."
"Why should we?" says Lamuse. "It would be a miracle if we did."
Our ages? We are of all ages. Ours is
a regiment in reserve which successive reinforcements have renewed
partly with fighting units and partly with Territorials. In our
half-section there are reservists of the Territorial Army, new recruits,
and demi-poils. Fouillade is forty-, Blaire might be the father
of Biquet, who is a gosling of Class 1913. The corporal calls Marthereau
"Grandpa" or "Old Rubbish-heap," according as in jest or in earnest.
Mesnil Joseph would be at the barracks if there were no war. It
is a comical effect when we are in charge of Sergeant Vigile, a
nice little boy, with a dab on his lip by way of mustache. When
we were in quarters the other day, he played at skippingrope with
the kiddies. In our ill-assorted flock, in this family without kindred,
this home without a hearth at which we gather, there are three generations
side by side, living, waiting, standing still, like unfinished statues,
like posts.
Our races? We are of all races; we come from everywhere. I look
at the two men beside me. Poterloo, the miner from the Calonne pit,
is pink; his eyebrows are the color of straw, his eyes flaxblue.
His great golden head involved a long search in the stores to find
the vast steel-blue tureen that bonnets him. Fouillade, the boatman
from Cette, rolls his wicked eyes in the long, lean face of a musketeer,
with sunken cheeks and his skin the color of a violin. In good sooth,
my two neighbors are as unlike as day and night.
Cocon, no less, a slight and desiccated person in spectacles, whose
tint tells of corrosion in the chemical vapors of great towns, contrasts
with Biquet, a Breton in the rough, whose skin is gray and his jaw
like a paving-stone; and Mesnil Andr6, the comfortable chemist from
a country town in Normandy, who has such a handsome and silky beard
and who talks so much and so well-he has little in common with Lamuse,
the fat peasant of Poitou, whose cheeks and neck are like underdone
beef. The suburban accent of Barque, whose long legs have scoured
the streets of Paris in all directions, alternates with the semi-Belgian
cadence of those Northerners who came from the 8th Territorial;
with the sonorous speech, rolling on the syllables as if over cobblestone,
that the 144th pours out upon us; with the dialect blown from those
ant-like clusters that the Auvergnats so obstinately form among
the rest. I remember the first words of that wag, Tirette, when
he arrived-"I, mes enfants, I am from Clichy-la-Garenne! Can any
one beat that?"-and the first grievance that Paradis brought to
me, "They don't give a damn for me, because I'm from Morvan!"
Our callings? A little of all-in the
lump. In those departed days when we had a social status, before
we came to immure our destiny in the molehills that we must always
build up again as fast as rain and scrap-iron beat them down, what
were we? Sons of the sod and artisans mostly. Lamuse was a farm-servant,
Paradis a carter. Cadilhac, whose helmet rides loosely on his pointed
head, though it is a juvenile size-like a dome on a steeple, says
Tirette-owns land. Papa Blaire was a small farmer in La Brie. Barque,
porter and messenger, performed acrobatic tricks with his carriertricycle
among the trams and taxis of Paris, with solemn abuse (so they say)
for the pedestrians, fleeing like bewildered hens across the big
streets and squares. Corporal Bertrand, who keeps himself always
a little aloof, correct, erect, and silent, with a strong and handsome
face and forthright gaze, was foreman in a case-factory. Tirloir
daubed carts with paint-and without grumbling, they say. Tulacque
was barman at the Throne Tavern in the suburbs; and Eudore of the
pale and pleasant face kept a roadside caf& not very far from
the front lines. It has been ill-used by the shellsnaturally, for
we all know that Eudore has no luck. Mesnil Andr~, who still retains
a trace of wellkept distinction, sold bicarbonate and infallible
remedies at his pharmacy in a Grande Place. His brother Joseph was
selling papers and illustrated story-books in a station on the State
Railways at the same time that, in far-off Lyons, Cocon, the man
of spectacles and statistics, dressed in a black smock, busied himself
behind the counters of an ironmongery, his hands glittering with
plumbago; while the lamps of B6cuwe Adolphe and Poterloo, risen
with the dawn, trailed about the coalpits of the North like weakling
Willo'-th'-wisps.
And there are others amongst us whose occupations one can never
recall, whom one confuses with one another; and the rural nondescripts
who peddled ten trades at once in their packs, without counting
the dubious P6pin, who can have had none at all. (While at the depot
after sick leave, three months ago, they say, he got married-to
secure the separation allowance.)
The liberal professions are not represented
among those around me. Some teachers are subalterns in the company
or Red Cross men. In the regiment a Marist Brother is sergeant in
the Service de Sant6, a professional tenor is cyclist dispatchrider
to the Major; a "gentleman of independent means" is mess corporal
to the C.H.R. But here there is nothing of all that. We are fighting
men, we others, and we include hardly any intellectuals, or men
of the arts or of wealth, who during this war will have risked their
faces only at the loopholes, unless in passing by, or under gold-laced
caps.
Yes, we are truly and deeply different from each other. But we are
alike all the same. In spite of this diversity of age, of country,
of education, of position, of everything possible, in spite of the
former gulfs that kept us apart, we are in the main alike. Under
the same uncouth outlines we conceal and reveal the same ways and
habits, the same simple nature of men who have reverted to the state
primeval.
The same language, compounded of dialect and the slang of workshop
and barracks, seasoned with the latest inventions, blends us in
the sauce of speech with the massed multitudes of men who (for seasons
now) have emptied France and crowded together in the North-East.
Here, too, linked by a fate from which there is no escape, swept
willy-nilly by the vast adventure into one rank, we have no choice
but to go as the weeks and months go-alike. The terrible narrowness
of the common life binds us close, adapts us, merges us one in the
other. It is a sort of fatal contagion. Nor need you, to see how
alike we soldiers are, be afar off-at that distance, say, when we
are only specks of the dust-douds that roll across the plain.
We are waiting. Weary of sitting, we get up, our joints creaking
like warping wood or old hinges. Damp rusts men as it rusts rifles;
more slowly, but deeper. And we begin again, but not in the same
way, to wait. In a state of war, one is always waiting. We have
become waitingmachines. For the moment,it is food we are waiting
for. Then it will be the post. But each in its turn. When we have
done with dinner we will think about the letters. After that, we
shall set ourselves to wait for something else.
Hunger and thirst are urgent instincts which formidably excite the
temper of my companions. As the meal gets later they become grumblesome
and angry. Their need of food and drink snarls from their lips
"That's eight o'clock. Now, why the hell doesn't it come?"
"There's the grub!" announces a poilu
who was on the look-out at the corner.
"Time, too!"
And the storm of revilings ceases as if by magic. Wrath is changed
into sudden contentment.
Three breathless fatigue men, their faces streaming with tears of
sweat, put down on the ground some large tins, a paraffin can, two
canvas buckets, and a file of loaves, skewered on a stick. Leaning
against the wall of the trench, they mop their faces with their
handkerchiefs or sleeves. And I see Cocon go up to 1?6p~re with
a smile, and forgetful of the abuse he had been heaping on the other's
reputation, he stretches out a cordial hand towards one of the cans
in the collection that swells the circumference of P6p&e after
the manner of a life-belt.
"What is there to eat?"
"It's there," is the evasive reply of the second fatigue man, whom
experience has taught that a proclamation of the menu always evokes
the bitterness of disillusion. So they set themselves to panting
abuse of the length and the difficulties of the trip they have just
accomplished: "Some crowds about, everywhere! It's a tough job to
get along-got to disguise yourself as a cigarette paper, sometimes."-"And
there are people who say they're shirkers in the kitchens!" As for
him, he would a hundred thousand times rather be with the company
in the trenches, to mount guard and dig, than earn his keep by such
a job, twice a day during the night!
Paradis, having lifted the lids of the jars, surveys the recipients
and announces, "Kidney beans in oil, bully, pudding, and coffee-that's
all."
"Nom de Dieu!" bawls Tulacque. "And wine?" He summons the crowd:
"Come and look here, all of you! That-that's the limit! We're done
out of our wine!"
Athirst and grimacing, they hurry up; and from the profoundest depths
of their being wells up the chorus of despair and disappointment,
"Oh, Hell!"
"Then what's that in there?" says the
fatigue man, still ruddily sweating, and using his foot to point
at a bucket.
"Yes," says Paradis, "my mistake, there is some.
The fatigue man shrugs his shoulders, and hurls at Paradis a look
of unspeakable scorn "Now you're beginning! Get your gig-lamps
on, if your sight's bad." He adds, "One cup each rather less perhaps-some
chucklehead bumped against me, coming through the Boyau du Bois,
and a drop got spilled. "Ah!" he hastens to add, raising his voice,
"if I hadn't been loaded up, talk about the boot-toe he'd have got
in the rump! But he hopped it on his top gear, the brute!"
In spite of this confident assurance, the fatigue man makes off
himself, curses overtaking him as he goes, maledictions charged
with offensive reflections on his honesty and temperance, imprecations
inspired by this revelation of a ration reduced.
All the same, they throw themselves on the food, and eat it standing,
squatting, kneeling, sitting on tins, or on haversacks pulled out
of the holes where they sleep-or even prone, their backs on the
ground, disturbed by passers-by, cursed at and cursing. Apart from
these fleeting insults and jests, they say nothing, the primary
and universal interest being but to swallow, with their mouths and
the circumference thereof as greasy as a rifle-breech. Contentment
is theirs.
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